As many of you may know, I am a college student. So many of my friends tell me about recent dates they've been on, spicy hookups they've had, and discuss their current crush. While I am happy for them and all of their relationship endeavors, it makes me wonder if I am broken emotionally (in a romantic sense) since I have not caught feels in YEARS. Four years to be exact.
I have found myself in a emotional dry spell regarding romantic feelings. It's so easy for me to spot cute guys on campus since my university is huge. I see attractive guys almost everyday. Some guys that I've met have definitely made me swoon because of their looks, but besides the feeling of physical attraction I have not experienced emotional attraction.
Four years, in my mind, is a long time not to feel any sort of emotional attraction to a person. I rationally know that this feeling is probably perfectly normal since there is a high possibility that they right person hasn't come along, yet I can't seem to not feel this way. My current mindset on relationships partially contributes to my fear of being alone forever.
I have dealt with the feeling of loneliness for a while now ever since I have been here at college. Rationally, I know that the adapting process takes time and I can't put a specific time frame on my feelings.
Overall, I have realized that one of my biggest fears is loneliness. Although I have friends at school, I feel as if none of them really listen or talk to me the way I would like them to. I always try to really listen to my friends when they are talking to me and try to give them honest, (hopefully) helpful feedback. I would like them to do the same.
In other words, I'm literally Michael Scott from the Office.
I have dealt with the feeling of loneliness for a while now ever since I have been here at college. Rationally, I know that the adapting process takes time and I can't put a specific time frame on my feelings.
Overall, I have realized that one of my biggest fears is loneliness. Although I have friends at school, I feel as if none of them really listen or talk to me the way I would like them to. I always try to really listen to my friends when they are talking to me and try to give them honest, (hopefully) helpful feedback. I would like them to do the same.
In other words, I'm literally Michael Scott from the Office.
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