Identity Crisis

Talking about race is a subject that needs to be talked about, yet it doesn't come up enough. (this blog post might be risky, but these are my thoughts, feelings, and opinions. I, in no means, do not intended to offend anyone) 

I am a mixed race individual. My father is American (of German decent a long way down the line) and my mother is Filipino (she came to the States in her early 20s); therefore, I am half white and half Asian (some may say wasian). However, I have been, and often am, mistaken for being Latina because of the mix. 

This is why I am confused. I identify with both American and Filipino culture, but because of the mix, I find it difficult to establish a set identity about myself. Meaning that I cannot fully identify with white Americans nor I fully identify with Filipinos. I am, and always will be, somewhere in between. I cannot fully identify with Filipino culture because I have lived in the States ever since I was born. I cannot fully identify with American culture because I am able to live an Asian lifestyle. It is difficult to define what I am.

Although not being able to define what I am ethnically, there are some advantages to it. I am able to identify with not just one culture but two. I get the best of both worlds (to quote Hannah Montana). I also am not defined by white or Filipino stereotypes. I am able to be me! 

I am trying to understand what it is to be me and with this new knowledge how can I grow as an individual. Maybe, I will be able to teach my perspective to others and help them gain more of an understanding. I am so grateful that I get to grow each day. 

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*I didn't post yesterday and I'm extremely bummed about it. I was going to type up a little post while my friend and I were studying but it was late and I was tired so I completely forgot about it. In other news, I think I found a steady casual friend. The friendship is not at "hey lets hang out on the weekends" friendship yet, but if we keep hanging out after class or meet up to study or whatnot I think it could be that kind of friendship. 

**Also it snowed yesterday and it put me in such a good mood. I love snow!